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|Friday, December 20th, 2013|
This whole BS about the 'Duck Dynasty' guys is beginning to Piss me off. Personally, what he said about "My Other Tribe" is nothing that I wouldn't hear any day on one of the local TV channels. It's the stuff about African Americans that DOES and how INTERESTINGLY it's not being brought up in most of the Media. Actually, I heard about it 1st in the online GLBT media. 2 days later it was mentioned offhand on of all places MSNBC and WHAT he said wasn't. I'm NOT a big Conspiracy Guy but I DO find it Interesting that right after a few states and places in American decide we're Human and should be treated like the rest of Humanity, we're being portrayed as hypocrites, picking on a "Godly Man"....
And folks wonder WHY I'm so Cynical....
Pat Current Mood: angry
|Thursday, December 19th, 2013|
Like most Gays, I'm finding the SHOCK!!!!! that one of the Fundy Furballs of 'Duck Dynasty' is a Homophobe a bit Amusing. It's like growing up in S Utah and being SHOCKED!!!! that FLDS girls are taught just enough to do domestic chores and read scripture or cookbooks......
Pat Current Mood: amused
|Monday, December 16th, 2013|
One the only ACTIVE Heathen list/group/etc I'm on the Moderator asked what folks were doing for the Holy Days. I admit, I've Fallen quite a bit from my Obsessively Observant Period(most of my Adults life;>).
What I've been doing the last few yrs is alternating Disablot(Honoring the Female Ancestors and Family Guardians) and Alfablot(Honoring the Male Ancestors and Elves). I'm too Celtic NOT to do something on Samhain and too Nordic to "do" Celtic Rites so one yr I DB then and AB on the Winter Solstice. The next yr I reverse it. The biggest problem is Remembering which did I do last;>!
This yr it's Alfablot.
Even in the Heathen community it's more likely that the Female Ancestors will be Honored more than the Male ones. Probably sublimated unresolved Xian Crap causing reactions instead of actions;>.
Back when I lived in the Bay Area I'd blot with Mead for Disablot and Ale for Alfablot but here in "The Dangly Bits" getting Mead is pretty impossible commercially. You CAN order online but sometimes the Temperance Nazis will confiscate packages from wineries and such(even locally with 2 military bases we're "Dry" on Sundays, Easter and Christmas). Basically, I've learned to check with our local microbrew store 2 weeks before a holy day to see what they've got in and make the appropriate Choice...like a Pumpkin-Pecan Ale for Disablot this yr;>!
Pat Current Mood: contemplative
|Sunday, December 15th, 2013|
It's been weird weather-wise here on "The Dangly Bits". 30'sF, 70'sF and now back again. My biggest projects are the plants overwintering in the greenhouse. Looks like a rat, possum or raccoon got in though since one of the Bloodoranges was gnawed on.
The beds are doing well, Napa and Choys sizing up nicely, Daikons and Green Onions doing well. The Leeks are putting up flowerstalks thanks to the alternating Temps. Don't remember what cultivar it is but since it's done better than ANY I've tried here....I'm letting them all go to seed so I can save them. I did the same with the Japanese Onion Shimonita Negi when it selfseeded into the lawn a few yrs ago. Nothings says "Will Do Well Here" than Naturalizing;>!
Other than that, not much. Well, dragging the Holiday Cacti in during Freezes and bringing the Cymbidiums and Orchid Cacti up on the porch to cover. One "Good Thing" about the fluxuating Temps is that they're about 2 weeks later than normal Blooming....just in Time for the Yule Season!
Pat Current Mood: accomplished
|Saturday, December 14th, 2013|
When podcasts 1st started, they were a pain. I wasn't a Mac person, didn't have an iPod. When I found one that also allowed mp3 downloads,. I still had to listen at my terminal. Not fun. A couple yrs ago my brother gave me his old IPod but it didn't have podcast ability. When it died this summer, he gave me a more recent old model Nano which DID.
So, I sit, listening mostly to comedians I like(Mark Marron, Paul F. Tompkins, Doug Stanhope, etc.), though I have subs to a couple Celtic and Heathen casts that update periodically.
Keeps the Spirits up;>....
Pat Current Mood: artistic
After a couple days to cool down, I've sorta forgiven my new MD. After all, WTF can I do? It's not like I can ask for another;>....
It's plain she needs what I've long since labeled in my head as, "The Talk". It's very simple and oft ignored by today's docs because so many of them specialize. It basically goes, "Just because you have ____, this doesn't mean you get a "Get Out of All the Other Crap that can Happen" card"....couched in a way that doesn't Piss them off. Few MD's like to be reminded they're ignoring something THAT simple;>.
Not ALL my problems are aids/hiv-based. I've had Arthritis since I was in my 20's. I was born with a deformed lower lumbar vertebrae which gave me back problems since middle school. It herniated in the late 90's and ruptured in the 00's. I've hearing loss due to an ear infection and vision lost in one eye due to a medication reaction(well, that one WAS an aids med so;>).Oddly enough, other than my Neuropathy caused by the virus and Endocrine collapse caused by the meds(including the Diabetes and Depression), all my problems are either caused by genetics or just AGE.
EVERY MD I've dealt with as an adult I've had to give this talk to. Heck, back when I was working as a nurse I had to remind the docs sometimes then as well! It's Human Nature to see things through personal "filters". Smart Humans remember this OR remind those that take care of them THIS.
Even at the expense of Pissing them OFF.
Pat Current Mood: contemplative
|Thursday, December 12th, 2013|
|DVD Recommendation: 'Grumpy Old Women-Live!'
I normally don't recommend stand-up DVDs(though I watch a lot of them;>)but considering I've repeatedly watched this one and it got me through yesterday's funk...I decided to do so.
'GOW-L' is the creation of British comics Jenny Éclair, Dillie Keane and Linda Robson. If you're a "woman of a certain age"(or a middle-aged Gay man;>)you'll be laughing your head off, even when you don't quite "get" some of the Brit Pop culture references. luckily, being almost as big of a Anglophile as Japanophile, the only one I had to ask a Brit friend about was "The Immersion"(btw, that's what one of those on-demand wall water heater's are called;>). 'Course, having a 50-something woman making a joke about suddenly wondering in the middle of receiving Oral Sex whether or not she's turned the darn thing off is, sadly one of the many spot on jokes in my life;>.
Worth looking for...
Pat Current Mood: amused
I admit. I'm a bit surprised how hard I've reacted to yesterday's clinic appt. I mean, it's really nothing new. Gov't incompetence(Fed, State and Local),unprepared staff, attitude, etc. It's SOP for Public Health, esp. here.
It's not just the treatment of being on Disability....at least my track. Here in "The Dangly Bits" there's two. One, the "Bless Their Heart(s)" are folks who were either born Disabled or were born and raised on the Dole. They get help. Then there are folks like me.
1-I worked most of my life. Therefore, becoming Disabled is somehow my fault because of a moral shortcoming
2-Since I don't look like "Death Warmed Over" I must be lazy and playing the system...unlike those that were raised in it and placed there by Jesus, "Bless their heart(s)".
I DO get a bit of a "kick" how a new MD in a rural Southern county can automatically discount all the work of one of the foremost aids/hiv clinics in the US(if not the world, Saint Mary's and San Francisco General)simply because I'm "too young to be in a walker and it'll just make you fatter".
Oh Well. Enough bitching for now;>....
ThanX for listening to my whining;>...
Pat Current Mood: exhausted
|Wednesday, December 11th, 2013|
Crappy clinic day. Labs were good....the one's they Remembered to order. COMPLETELY forgot the one's pertaining to Diabetes, so I have to go Again.
3 Sticks to get 2 tubes of Blood for a test that that they used to do under the skin(TB). apparently, Florida thinks Poor people are too stupid to have the things checked.
Medicaid, the reason I lost my aids med assistance has disappeared from Florida computers. I get to repeat the 3 month BS I had to go through this time LAST YR.
New MD. I know she means well but I esp. HATE these new ones who've only taken care of folks who've seroconverted since the MEds. They seldom have seen the damage yrs of untreated hiv can cause so they just assume you're a whiny piece of shite. Oh, she also want's me to stop using my walker because "it's a crutch".....
Pat Current Mood: depressed
|Friday, December 6th, 2013|
Sooooo, yesterday I'm recovering from the Yule tree from Hell(folks gave us their old one last yr. Found no base. EVERY BLOODY base I could find(and had to buy)either didn't fit or was too light and it fell ON ME. Finally just went to Big Lots and bought the tallest and cheapest)by reading threads on one of my Pagan lists/groups/communities/whatevers that I normally don't...like TV shows. Esp Reality TV(VERY Bored was I;>). One woman was commenting on that new show about folks escaping from the Warren Jepps FLDS Church. She said, "I don't see why these people stay. After all, it's just a made-up religion...".
I want my Dear Readers to Know that I DID NOTHING.I TYPED NOTHING;>....
Hardest thing I've had to do online in a loooong time;>.
Pat Current Mood: bitchy
|Monday, December 2nd, 2013|
I admit that I oft find the most "Inclusive" folks just the opposite. It's one of the reasons we don't interact with the local Pagan community anymore. It's also one of those why I don't to aids/hiv related activities anymore.
There's no more ALONE feeling that being around people who belittle your Faith, Your Experiences, your World View....all the while acting as if they are doing you a favor allowing you to bask in their Presence.
I grew up in a family that was usually stationed Overseas...which meant the majority of folks that spoke my language were like us. Military life is an odd combo of Progressive and Conservative. For instance, it wasn't till Dad Retired I learned that folks who Believed that your Race or Religion determined what kind of person you were. At least in the world of military families, it was how well you did your Job that was.
In a way I was lucky to "Come Out" pre-aids/hiv because there wasn't a big focus on Politics. Those that had their world-view formed DURING the Plague Yrs DID. For those of us that were Fiscally Conservative but Socially Liberal, we found ourselves unwelcome pretty much EVERYWHERE. I was luckier than many of my compatriots; my Personality is such that if you Attack ME and Mine...I consider you an ENEMY. I my agree with you a lot on much but by doing this you seal your Fate in my life. I don't Nurse a Grudge...I send it to Grad school;>!
On the Lefty side, my Beliefs Spiritual oft conflicted with theirs(at least I thought so. I was oft reminded how WRONG I was/am). That I gave Oaths seldom and those I did keeping them, even when changing Ways I stayed "Tru" to that Pantheon and it's Rules instead of doing what was "convenient".
I also, relating to my previous post learned that the same Word(s) were not heard the same between me and Others. It wasn't until my late 30's/early 40's that I stopped attempting to get Outsiders to "hear" what I was "saying". Perhaps if I'd done it earlier, I wouldn't have needed BP meds;>!
In a lot of ways "dealing" with the Exclusivists is easier. As far as they're concerned, you aren't "Their Kind"...PERIOD. Inclusivists INSIST that what you Believe or Are is REALLY the same as them, you just need to be "Educated". The concept of being Wrong(even for others, no matter how hard "lip service" they pay to "Diversity") NEVER is considered.
So, today most of my Interactions Metaphysically are online. And that's OK.
Pat Current Mood: thoughtful
|Sunday, December 1st, 2013|
Every Way has(at least;>) one, from a dialect to a full-blown language. The sad thing is that few folks seem to grasp this simple fact and much confusion ensues.
The 1st one I was aware of was that between Mainline Protestant Christianity and Mormonism as a Teen. Both used pretty much the same Words, yet the meanings were markedly different. Take "God"(please;>!). One meant a Universal, Creative Being, the other the Mated Noncorporeal Ruler of a planet(or solar system. I could never get anyone to explain it more clearer). Yet both use the same term in the same way. Watching the last couple of elections here in the States with fundamentalist Christians and Mormons joining together as "Christians" made me smile...and not my nice one.
They also change as well. I used to be sort of Newagy back in the 80's. Today, I have NO idea what my SIL's saying. Even the in-faith jargon shifts...sort of like slang does.
Big problems manifest when folks DON'T acknowledge this. Familial ones where my SIL assumes that since my Faith is considered "Alternative", therefore it's like hers and has similar beliefs and understandings. Community ones where certain groups consider Understandings the "True" ones, no matter how those not of those groups attempt to "Educate".
In almost 4 decades of Conscious Spiritual Exploration and Work I've YET to find a Solution. The best is a kind of Answer; Patience and distance...
Pat Current Mood: contemplative
|Wednesday, November 27th, 2013|
So, Mom came home yesterday. Looks like she's going to have to be on Oxygen from now on...not just "As Needed". Other than that and a bad case of O2 Throat(they don't use Humidifiers anymore so the 0% Humidity O2's rough on the sinuses and throat...)she's doing better.
So, of course the Universe had to Balance things out by me having a Fall that day(for comparison of "Falling" and "Having a Fall", see 'Grumpy Old Women Live', a British comedy;>). Some scrapes, tendons pulled in my L foot(last time a couple were torn)and soaked to the bone since I did a header into a drainage ditch. Looks like No more Cane for me....I'm stuck using a Walker from now on.
Pat Current Mood: quixotic
|Saturday, November 23rd, 2013|
Yesterday, Dad didn't show up with the paper. Not that we need it but it gives him something to do and makes him Feel Useful. Thing is, if the paper is late, he'll call by 0730. If it hasn't and no call, 90% of the time it's TROUBLE.
I give him a ring and he tells me that Mom is fine, just had to go to the hospital last night. I DO get tired of this, "don't want to worry the kids" stuff.
It's the usual. SOB due to water retained due to CHF and Kidney disease(sadly, caused by damage from dyes used in Cardiac Caths). So they have her cathed and Lasixed to get the excess water out of her lungs(about 10#, according to her weight over the last month).
Chuck and I'll visit around 1000. When she's had this happen before, she's usually in for 1-2 days getting the excess fluid out. I have a Feeling next yr she'll be going on Dialysis....
Pat Current Mood: exhausted
|Thursday, November 21st, 2013|
I really appreciate Marion taking over the Havamal group over on Yahoogroups. I needs something "Lore-y" this time of yr especially. Not just the general culture's holidays, it's just the amt of Eejits that seem to be more noticeable this time of yr.
Have added Mitchell and Robinson's 'A Guide to OE' as well as Davis' Sweet's to to my Pollington. Unfortunately, both use the same Pronunciation Key basically as Pollington does, which for those of us raised and schooled in the States can cause Cognitive Dissonance, esp the Macron NOT marking a Vowel "long" by ME standards. I actually had less problems with Old Norse;>. Oh well. I've plenty of time before 1/1/14;>....
Pat Current Mood: nerdy
|Tuesday, November 19th, 2013|
it's gone better than it could have. Took the "kids" back to the shelter to get their vaccines up to date and I wanted them to look at Rocky. He'd had loose stools ever since we got him(not THAT unusual with kittens when environment and diet changes)but started having diarrhea dribbles Friday and Monday AM had a one that was mostly pink water. The vet diagnosed basically kitty giardia and prescribed the same med I had when I had Giardia back in my Forest Service days.
Even though he has to be towel wrapped, he does take the meds which in pill form were NASTY so I can imagine what the liquid tastes like;>! I'm also trying an alt-tx from the Internet for Feline Diarrhea...Pureed Pumpkin. Couldn't be a better time of yr to need THIS stuff;>! So far, so good as long as I feed him his wet catfood/pumpkin mix BEFORE his meds. After....I didn't remember in time how the stuff made me feel. 'Course, 1980 was a while ago;>....
Pat Current Mood: determined
|Sunday, November 17th, 2013|
Things were going too well with the new "kids", so....
In 2 weeks, the only "problem" we have is Rocky deciding that 0300 is Breakfast Time and will nip at your chin if you don't respond to loud purring;>. About 5 days ago I noticed, after getting a face full of catbutt;> that Rocky had matted fur around his anus. Friday he began to have what in Humans would be called "Wet Farts". Yesterday evening we began to find raindrop-sized dribbles ever so often. Nothing big, and not many. No change in his Appetite or Energy.
Luckily, tomorrow they both have to go back to the shelter to finish up their vaccines so we'll ask them to check him out. I have a feeling this has been going on for a while since he's "a Runt" and the shelter had worried about his lack of weight and size because he had a shitload(sorry, couldn't resist;>)of tests and was negative to all the usual nasty diseases that cats get(and we have tests for). Personally? I have a feeling he was born with the Feline equivalent of Chrone's Disease. Doesn't matter anyway. He's part of the family now and he's here for the duration.....
Pat Current Mood: worried
|Wednesday, November 13th, 2013|
|Top 3 Fav Anime Series....
So, as I'm indulging in a bit of "wallowing"(overdid it hauling stuff into the greenhouse yesterday + 4 fillings at Dentist today...)and as I tend, I watch my fav Anime, flick or series. Today, it's series. I admit I'm a bit of a "dweeb" in the Anime community so my picks aren't "Avante Garde";>...
1:'Highschool of the Dead'-A group of students try to survive during a world-wide Zombie Apocalypse. Standard "Romero" Zombies(my type. Can't stand "Ninja Z's" like remake of 'DotD' or 'WWZ')with slight variations; only sense left is Hearing and bites "turn" you within minutes.
2:'XXX-holic'-A 'Twilight Zone' like series where a young man who not only Sees Spirits, they're Attracted to him is helped my a Witch, who for here help requires him to work for her in her shop while people with various problems come for help. But the Help is what you deserve as well as what you asked for;>....
3:'Ah My Buddha!'-A light comedy about a young monk who gets stationed in a temple "manned" by young Nuns. The temple specializes in Spiritual problems of the Spirit-kind(Blessings, Exorcisms, etc) and the monk has Inherited the great Power of an Ancient Monk/Saint who, was a bit of a "Dirty Old Man" so his Powers are only Activated when he gets Aroused;>....
Pat Current Mood: blah
|Monday, November 11th, 2013|
|Prepping for Winter...
Last couple of days I've been prepping the greenhouse for Winter, since we might get our 1st Freeze Wednesday. Last yr's plastic insulation is still useable, though due to squirrel's nesting(at least I'm HOPING they were squirrels;>)it has pulled loose from part of the roof. Ran out of staples attempting to fix and OF COURSE no "backup" available. Tomorrow I'll go buy some.
Dragged all the tender Ornamentals to the back yard so it'll be a quick haul in. Fertilized the veggie bed with Organic(since nutrients need to be broken down by microbes, nutrients only get released when Weather permits..so no growth spurts that Frost can damage.
Week since the "hairballs" joined the household and have adjusted well. Do worry a touch about Rocky though. He's 2 mo older and a third smaller and lighter than Butch. His papers show he'd been tested and found Negative for a number of feline diseases so I think the shelter was worried a well but I think he's just a runt...as was my Siamese back in the 80's and 90's, Chi. She was half the size of her siblings(not to mention a Bluepoint in a Sealpoint litter;>)and grew to be about a quarter smaller than her companion, CS. So, I'm just going to keep my eye on him. He's eating well so I'm not worried too much.
Pat Current Mood: anxious